words that no one hears....

It is really a challenge that i never expect it to happened. I was so so so lost when things happened.. why is me?? I don't know whether all decisions that i makes were right or wrong... but no matter what decisions that i'd make, no more turning back.... but i really can't get the inside feelings out... stil very very very very very damn angry..... i just wish that i can get everything away... feel like ending up everything..... if end up everything..then no more things to be worry about or to angry with... it is so suffering for me to pretend nothing all the time... i hav to pretend being happy so that people around me won't worry much!! but it is so suffering.... who can understand my feelings???? i guess no one can... NO ONE CAN!!!! why muz there be a black dot in a pure white paper?? why muz there be a line on a perfect marble?? why people can be so FAKE????? this hatred feeling wil never get away..... the black dot will never be deleted from the white pure paper... the marble wil no longer perfect.... everything wil come to the end if the dot getting darker or the line getting deeper n longer.....