% How will things be?? %

Almost one week d... how things goin on?? I also not very sure... sometimes still wondering whether my decision is right or wrong... but i know, there is no use looking back again.. what i need to do now is look into future for a better life.. I know my decision had created lost of burdens to my family members... feel so sorry towards them... i believe this incident will change my behavior tremendously.... i'm still in the adjustment stage... so i dunno who will i be in da next minutes.. will I become more Angel or more Devil.. no one knows.. only God knows... I've learned and see somethings from this incident... If I would care about wat i've seen.. i guess... Devil will appears... sometimes i really dunno what ppl around me are thinking of... Sometimes i really feel that no one understand me... who said the youngest child will be the spoiled child? who said the youngest child got nothing to worry of? who said the youngest child most pampered? this is how the youngest child will be: the youngest child will be the one that hav to concern about how others feel.. the youngest child must be the one who the last for ppl to consider about (if only there is time left)... the youngest child have to do everything... the youngest child got no rights to voice out... but can't deny that the youngest child will get all the materials that they ask for or they do not ask for!!! so... "xing fu"... ^^ if my sisters read this blog... i will be... hehe.. i really dunno what will I be or how will I be for the next minutes.. but.. I hope that things doesn't affect my final exam.... n I hope.. devil in me never grows... hope everythings can settle down asap n life can be normal back... ^^