This is what I can do...

Already do my very best to hide...
Acting is the only thing I can do....
Although I am not the best actress, but this all the best I can act...
Sorry if I'm not good in acting.. but I hope it will reduce the worries..
Already so many years..
I tot it already reach the end..
I tot it will change..
I tot it will be good..
I tot everything will be fine...
But..things just never happen as what I tot..
It is not the end...but the beginning..
It never change..and I duno when it will as I hope..
It will never be good and never be fine..
Just don't understand why all these have to be in this way...
Am I not good enuf??
Y don't I deserve happiness just like others do??
When I was kids, I was so curious about so many things...
You told me: "Never knowing is better than knowing it"
Now I understand and I strongly agree..
I wish I never know...
I wish I never grow....
I wish I am still the small girl that fully of curiosity..
Disguise is the best answer I can find and the best thing I can do.